wow. where the heck did this year go?! a lot of people seemed to love the last year of '0_, while others absolutely hated it. i was on the fence about the past 365 days. it had many downs, and sadly not enough ups to balance it out, but that's ok. it started pretty horribly, with the passing of my grandpa occurring not long before the start of the New Year, along with all the baggage that was attached to it. it pretty much fogged most of the first several months of '09, and affected everyone in my family in the most negative way imaginable. it continued with even more downs, more so related to boy dramz than anything else, but luckily it either got resolved or just simply forgotten about. forgetting is the new forgiving doesn't always work, but talking it out does. also, living in Van made the first half of second year UBER emo..the sudden change in atmosphere, not being used to the distance from everyone and everything, and just school not going the way i wanted it to messed me up hcore.
OF COURSE there were the ups. everything seemed to become fab during the summer, so ill just begin there! some travelling to Alaska and visiting my awesome fam in Calgary, having insurance on the '93 Corolla and taking major advantage of it, not registering in ANY courses and just taking some good 4 months to chillax, quitting my dizzzgusting retail job, spending soooo much time with the best friends, doing whatever we wanted to, eating at as manyy of the places on our "list to eat at in summer of '09," hitting up those random spots we haven't been to since the elementary school days, boy love and unlove, and getting introduced then unintroduced to many ballin cars that the guys seemed to buy yet sold within months of purchase (i miss that RX8 wayyyy too much Shanty! ={ ) after reading Sushi's blog, i didn't get to take advantage of the legalness that people seemed to enjoy, but my 19th made up for it.
i changed a lot this year. ive learned to appreciate the little things my parents do for me, and how all those little things add up to so much; that maybe i'm not meant to be in the major that i currently am in, and that there are so many more options out there for me, that i made myself blind to see; that i have friends that will always be there for me, no matter how stupid i am, how rarely i see them, and that they love me even though they know so much about me (although there aren't tons of them, those few buddies i have mean soo much to me); that boys shouldn't be my focus and that having tons of guy friends and making more of them is actually not a bad thing..man hating phase Sush? ;) ; and that no matter what i do or say or choose, my family will never turn their backs on me. i'm hoping 2010 will be the start of something amazing, a more positive year with farrr more ups than downs. lets stay in the mindset that this coming year will be just that! buhbyes 2009, HELLOOOOOO 2010!!
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