Ramble II

although there's so much going on in my life right now, both good and bad, I need a change. I need a change that's different from just adding on another commitment to the other gazillion and one things I usually do, different from where I live, different from what I always do. I just don't know what 'that' is. I don't know if it means meeting new people, finding a different networking base, finding that person, or literally changing something in my life, but I want to discover what that something is. Abin's idea of going to Australia when he heads down there is becoming more and more tempting as the days pass, but it seems like my life here in Van just isn't complete enough yet. I don't think relocating quite yet will help me, because it just feels like there's something here that I haven't found yet that's looking for me. going to Australia would help me find that brand new something, providing that weird fulfilling feeling in a quick (and expensive) way, but I think the Science kid in me, the person that will work uber hard for a simple answer, still wants to search for what Vancouver, what UBC, what home has in store for me first.

I'm sure this post makes no sense, but that's how my brain has been working lately. it's been very ambiguous, very confused, and wanting to find that piece of the puzzle that's missing in me, that's making me feel empty, making me feel incomplete. I don't know if it's a person or people, or if it's an opportunity, or even that "ah ha" moment, but I hope I find "it" soon.