I need..

to dance the night away soon. with the bestie of course.

more specifically, a bit of the above! (L)

Badass?

I wish I was (I thought I was back in summer of '09 with the piercing thing..). but I'm still wanting to fulfill that tattoo craving. just a small one, nothing big. thinking of the right wrist. and my thought was to get this:

I saw it a while back on a blog and although the meaning for the tattoo is somewhat emo, I think it's quite fitting for more reasons than one.

"In essence, this is finity. All that will end, everything physical, emotional, every experience or state of being there will be. And the fact that nothing, including this constant finity, can or will last forever."

deep, no? just one of those "hmmm, just a thought" tats. I'm into the simplicity of it more than anything else. =)

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Science Week: Jello Wrestling

although I'm no longer in the faculty of science, I always seem to still end up in Ladha every now and then, helping out with some random SUS events. today was no exception. show up at the SUB Ballroom to see how the set up for Jello Wrestling was going, and end up spending the next 3 hours helping set up/ organize random shieet with the event. of course I participated as well! Mona is a beast. that is all.

too many photos were taken, including (I'm sure) some random cell ones on Ankit's part. I kinda want SUS to post em on FB! all in all, very good, science'y but SUPER tiring day.

back to FNH 398 and BIOC 302..={

it would be lovely (II)..

if I stopped thinking about you. (it would also be a HELL of a lot easier if I didn't have to see you allllll the time, but that's not an option.)

OH WELLS.

back to studying for my first midterm (FNH 351). yes, its January 24th..school started on January 4th..this deserves a WADAFACK. at least I get a cheat sheet! (awwwww yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeah)

Ugly Day

I'm having a total ugly day. one of those "my face looks gross, I feel bloated and fat, and all I wanna do is wear ugly house pants and watch old episodes of Grey's" sort of days. life is just not cool right now, but nothing I'd prefer explaining on an open blog. but today, I'm hoping to study, and somehow bring myself to a positive energy point, and see some friends (either the bests, or a group who knows very little about me (witnessing a bunch of really wasted brown boys is ALWAYS some good times!).

I wanna do that for myself today. I need to do that for myself today.

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Me to a T.

Fear of the Unknown

it's the only thing that holds me down from anything I want to pursue.

this explains my feelings perfectly.

Deucesssss

Ramble II

although there's so much going on in my life right now, both good and bad, I need a change. I need a change that's different from just adding on another commitment to the other gazillion and one things I usually do, different from where I live, different from what I always do. I just don't know what 'that' is. I don't know if it means meeting new people, finding a different networking base, finding that person, or literally changing something in my life, but I want to discover what that something is. Abin's idea of going to Australia when he heads down there is becoming more and more tempting as the days pass, but it seems like my life here in Van just isn't complete enough yet. I don't think relocating quite yet will help me, because it just feels like there's something here that I haven't found yet that's looking for me. going to Australia would help me find that brand new something, providing that weird fulfilling feeling in a quick (and expensive) way, but I think the Science kid in me, the person that will work uber hard for a simple answer, still wants to search for what Vancouver, what UBC, what home has in store for me first.

I'm sure this post makes no sense, but that's how my brain has been working lately. it's been very ambiguous, very confused, and wanting to find that piece of the puzzle that's missing in me, that's making me feel empty, making me feel incomplete. I don't know if it's a person or people, or if it's an opportunity, or even that "ah ha" moment, but I hope I find "it" soon.

Co-op

have two more days to decide. I think I'm leaning towards the 'drop out' option..

Goal of 2011

learn how to say 'no.' if only it was that simple.

Frushi..

is too G for their own good. I use the phrase "awwwww yeeeeeeeeeeeah" (Jersey Shore style) while Rach rocks the "whatup" *raise right hand, old church lady style* quite a bit. I don't think this wannabe G phase will ever fade..ever..legit.

Ramble

there's something wrong, and I don't know what it is, and don't know why it exists, but it does. it's there. and I would love for it to go away.

nerd love

I think I like him even more now! I can't help but lovin' nerds who cover uber fab oldies, and also play a few instruments. automatic love.

You are my sweetest downfall

every now and then, I need a bit of Regina in my life.

Story of my life.

this was mildly cute..but I'll still be too much of a freeze to ever do so!

Oh, Hai