RANT I

the title itself warns you that a rant is coming..beware.

so, lately, a something has been bothering me. girl friends, and their boys. kay, seriously, why is it that, in some cases, when a girl finds a boy, their lives revolve around them? nothing matters more than that guy, they cancel plans because of them, they refuse to follow through with plans because their guy doesn't want them to go out, they listen to whatever the boy says, and make decisions based on their boys opinions. WTF?! why is it that some girls totally lose their Independence. it's EXTREMELY annoying. also, why is it that girls get extremely jealous by dumb little things their guy does. just because he's talking to some other girls doesn't mean he's cheating on you. unless you have physical proof, don't make assumptions. and if you're unable to actually have a conversation about what's bothering you about your boy, really how great is your relationship with him? why is it that they are worried about how the relationship will end up after she talks out how she feels? grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. yes, I'm fine with being a good friend and listening to you and how you feel, but you kinda need to do the same thing with your guy to resolve whatever underlying issues you have. but as a very independent lady, what bothers me most is the amount of dependence girls have for guys once a relationship starts up. what exactly will they do if it ends, or if the guy has super eff'd up opinions? will they just go with it, or actually gain a backbone? urghhhhhh.

rant: done. (yes this was poorly written, but it accomplished it's goal of making me feel slightly better. back to LFS250..)

With You I'm Born Again

'When we say things like "people don't change" it drives scientist crazy because change is literally the only constant in all of science. Energy. Matter. It's always changing, morphing, merging, growing, dying. It's the way people try not to change that's unnatural. The way we cling to what things were instead of letting things be what they are. The way we cling to old memories instead of forming new ones. The way we insist on believing despite every scientific indication that anything in this lifetime is permanent. Change is constant. How we experience change that's up to us. It can feel like death or it can feel like a second chance at life. If we open our fingers, loosen our grips, go with it, it can feel like pure adrenaline. Like at any moment we can have another chance at life. Like at any moment, we can be born all over again.'

EPL

“People think that a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that’s holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then they leave.”

“But I love him.”

“So love him.”

“But I miss him.”

“So miss him. […] But here’s what you gotta understand. If you clear out all that space in your mind that you’re using right now to obsess about this guy, you’ll have a vacuum there, an open spot - a doorway. And guess what the universe will do with that doorway? It will rush in and fill you with more love than you ever dreamed.

“But I wish…”

“You gotta stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone oughtta be.”

- Eat Pray Love, Elizabeth Gilbert

I need to find me a Bruno Mars.(L)

I'm really lacking the ability to say this simple, two letter word lately..

Science Frosh 2010

so tiring, got 2.5 hours of sleep the night before, it rained the day of, some froshees bailed last minute, but all in all, Frosh 2010 was STILL epic! hope all the first year noobs had tons of fun..like a boss.

Summer '10

yes, I know, kinda late for this one. but whatevs, I'm still writing it. time to look back on what was summer '10.

-May = chill. I legit did nothing, turned my brain off, spent time with the friends, but still kept busy with some volunteer stuff. (WOOT to ELITE 2010 for showing me that it is possible to run on 3 hours of sleep in a 72 hours time span, and that Red Bull shots are quite lethal.) May was the month where I could relax, catch up with the buddies, spend time with my best lady (and making time to dance the nigh away with her!), and well as to forget about second year and be stoked for the third year. a lot of things were still up in the air (not knowing my faculty/ specialization for this year, how many classes I would take, the usual).

-June/July = part chill/ part FML I HATE SUMMER SCHOOL!! half of June was again relaxing, did some research of job opportunities for the summer, and what not. then WABAMMMM, summer school hit me on June 18th. 3 weeks compressed course, followed by a typical 6 week course = not much of a social life at all. with school + Frosh stuff + other volunteer shizz, seeing the friends was non existant..which was disappointing. seeing Rach + the boys once in more than a month = TORTURE! but hey, I got through it, did pretty well in FNH 250, and survived ECON 101.

-August = busy/chaotic. a week long trip to the states right after summer school ended, followed by Frosh hecticness before and after the trip, then a month long job with GALA, while trying to fit in friends whenever I was doing nothing made August stupidly busy. on top of that, trying to all of a sudden get back into full time school mode, buying books, re-organziing my schedule and realizing residence wouldn't be an option this term made August quite overwhelming. but the bests allowed me to survive, along with my fam having my back. I legit would've gone insane last month if I didn't see the crew at least a couple times a week. GALA was an amazing experience, met tons of fantastics students and SD staff, and learned so much when it comes to leadership and event planning skills. I felt like being in Students' Council all over again (with a bit less drama, and actually getting paid for my work!)


all in all, Summer '10 had to be my best summer so far. I spent time with people who actually mattered, avoided drama altogether, was productive in more ways than one, and kept myself busy throughout the 4 months. of course I didn't want it to end, but hey, a new school year means more opportunities, more good times, and more memories. this year will be full of new hcanges, new people, a new faculty/specialization, jsut a lot of 'new' in general. am I scared? yes. am I stoked? of course! I'm just excited what third year will bring!