blogging > studying

so i have another quiz on friday, worth 25% again..and studying for it just doesnt seem like the most interesting thing to do right now (ill regret this tomorrow night..probs get 4 hours of sleep again just like last week..down a few Red Bull shots and strong tea..). life is pretty boring right now. havent seen the guys since before Elite i think..holy crap if thats true, thats wayyyyy too much time away from them. and according to frushi time frames, its been too long since i saw Rach..which was last week sometime!! we tend to miss each other very quickly, and not seeing each others faces and not having some sort of an eatingfest together depresses us. what should i blog about? hmmmm..lets do relationships. so i havent been in one for like 2 years, and have passed the stage of being sad about this for a solid year or so. but recently some of my friends have been pushing me to "go out with someone," and this is coming from BOTH my guy friends and some uni besties (most of whom are currently in a relationship). i kinda dont get the big deal about having a boy. and none of them have legit reasons as to why i should have a boyfriend, other than i havent had one in a long time. im 19, making sure i have a "bf" was soooooo high school. now, its more of the independance thing, doing what i want without worrying about what my boy thinks, spending more time with my best friends, being a nerd in school and in the community, and just growing as a person. i dont know if being in a relationship will allow me to do that (and trying to find a nice, smart, cute-nerd Van boy who isnt a creeper is close to impossible when you live in Surrey). im pretty much fine where i am right now, no longer in the man hating phase, but fine with the being friends than anything else, y'know? i dont know if this is coming from the Whitney whos just given up on guys in general for a long while, or if its the real person in me who wants to spend my time on more important things and people. *has a pondering moment* i kinda think its moreso the latter right now (me a year ago would NOT have had this opinion!). a lot of girls are the type who are hcore HUNTING for a guy, and as one of my guy friends keeps saying, he will probs come when you LEAST expect it..or when youre really hating on boys!! but hey, ive reached a point where im really just going with the flow, with school, commitments, friends, everything, not hunting anything in general, seeing what life throws at me. and im actually liking this new me. i like where im at. i like where things are going! =)

..well that went a bit off topic!!