eye opening experience.

yups. time to get over it. im far too classy for you. =)

summer? WADAFACK?! [update]

ok, so, like, its summer break now? really? are you sure? because, like, it looks like crapola outside, and did the winter term just end? fo serious, i have NO clue where the hell this year went. NO clue! it felt like i had just moved out, and now im moving back in!! oh Surrey, time to start loving you again.. the last week was HELL!! i got probs 10 hrs of sleep in 3 days (thats the amount of sleep i get in ONE night..!!) and it was brutal. 3 exams, back to back. damn you Olympic break for making our exams scheduled so that it was fit into a 2 week span. im SO glad my ochem exam was the first and that i had 6 days to study for 3 exams. but when you have 2 exams that are back to back, both that are at 8:30am = uncool. i dont think ill recover from my lack of sleep effects for a good week. my body loves sleep, and obvs not getting any (twws?) for 3 days will have some horrible effects. OH, and i found out that energy drinks is something my body hates. its not the crash of caffeine or that weird high from it, my stomach just cant handle all the crap thats in it!! energy drink intolerance..at least i know i wont die in the future from the random chemicals and what not that are in those scary mofos!!

im stoked on life for a break from school. second year was HELL. it was the WORST year ive ever experienced!! ill be taking 2 classes this summer, if i get a job ill work, and ill be a nerd and volunteer here and there as well. the '93 Corolla may be on the road again, if its still alive (which i hope it isnt, since itll be an excuse for me to finally buy a better car..still old but something better than my ugly beige thing!!). i just really want to spend time with the friends, since i was so deprived of them this school year. i miss some of those boys and especially my -ushi. so i know a LOT of money will be spent on food dates with my other half of frushi, and some cheap outting with those guys. lets hope its better than last summer..and less "odd" filled. last summer was very bizarre in MANY aspects, and super emo at times as well. its gotta get better, no? ANYWHOS, theres a lot a wanna write, but since my brain has just failed on me, and suddenly wants some sleep, i shall obey its commands!! bye for now!

http://www.formspring.me

so i decided to make an account, just to see what random shizz people wanted to ask me and what not. and realized (although a had a slight feeling it would happen) that people would ask really horrible questions. not gross and sexual and inappropriate ones, but just nasty and cold, hurtful ones. buttttt, it also opened my eyes to the fact that the idiots asking the questions make themselves VERY obvious! most people know very little about me, and the select literally 2 people i talk to personal things about would never tell others about my situations. which cuts the people who know that information to a very minimal few..people who are part of the ordeal, who really need the balls to ask me those questions to my face.. so in short, i shall be answering only the questions i WANT to (and i know the peeps who questioned me on formspring read my blog as well, so keep that in mind homies!! ;) ).

im a community channel addict

damn you JEFF YU for making me an addict..!!
i think ive been living under a rock since a bunch of people know about her YET i dont..
anyways, watching her uber old vids during study breaks is getting me through midterms. i lawld at this one..probs b.c of the amount of profanity!!

FACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

as many uni students are aware of, its finals time. PEAK finals time. the period where no one gets MORE than 5 hrs of sleep (if that), where energy drinks/coffee/tea are a MUST to survive, and when convenient fast food, that cooks in 5 minutes, or is served to you in less than that much time seems to be very enticing. today was my first exam..bloody ochem..and i hope i did decently on it. it was hard, but i wasn't expecting anything less than that in terms of difficulty. i gotssss 3 more left, one after another, starting the 25th and ending the 27th..i'm PRAYING it wont be hcore rape-age. that would make me sad..especially for BIOL 201. fml. anyways, my brain is pretty much mush at the moment, and studying is UBER difficult. but must.keep.going. only 8 days til hell is OVA, where i shall spend the remaining of that day: 1) volunteering, 2) spending time with the -ushi to my frushi eating tons of True Confection's nomalicious-ness, and watching musicals (including singing along to them) in ugly home pants, and 3) going back home and spending some MUCH needed time avec the fam bam. 27th, you're looking sooooo beautiful to me right now!

p.s. this seems to be a fad that's growing right now, so i decided to try it out by making an account this morning. lets see how this goes! www.formspring.me/whitneyhussain

The Buried Life

But often, in the world's most crowded streets,
But often, in the din of strife,
There rises an unspeakable desire
After the knowledge of our buried life.

weddingsweddingssweddingsss

sooooo, i went to a wedding yesterday (the "nikah" portion of it) of a high school acquaintance. yes, we graduated together, and yes that makes her 19. i found it the most surreal experience. i probably wouldn't have been so emotional if she was in her mid to late 20's, or if this wasn't initiated by the parents through the whole arranged marriage thing, but the situation involved both. (by the way, arranged marriages aren't what everyone has the misconception of it being. the parents, yes, find a potential bride/groom for their son/daughter, but they do have a choice of whether or not they want to go forward with the marriage in the near future.) i don't know, at times it was a bit upsetting, because she so damn young. but if she's happy, if she feels she is mature enough to follow through with this decision, and if shes accepting of the many responsibilities she will probably have once she moves out (she'll be living in England very soon), then i've got her back. i just find it sad in the sense that the peak of her life is sort of taken away, that she wont really be able to enjoy those fun years of being a 20-something, and that she will probably grow up a lot faster than most of the people she graduated with; mind you, she has far more mature of a mentality than most of her fellow 19/20 year olds. i pray it all works out though, because she is the most nice and kind hearted type. her life is going to be sooooo different than what she's used to here in Surrey, but hey, in a sense in a new, exciting step in her life, right?

*face palm*

no joke, it doesn't matter how hurt i get, or how many times it occurs, i probably will never learn from past experiences..lust is a stupid thing.

i.hate.interviews.

no joke, i have never liked the idea of talking about yourself for a good 30 minutes, being interrogated, and being tested to see if you can think on the spot with random ass questions (ie my co-op interview). i don't think i've been asked to even bash myself (if we were to speak to your former employers/supervisors, what would they say that needs improvement about you) nor about some random Food Nutrition Health problem (although i'm not yet even in the specialization). eff emm elll. today was so nerve racking, it was ridonculous. so glad it over and done with..now time to wait til May to see if i even got in..!!!

this is not a love story, this is a story about love.

500 Days of Summer..

story of my life? me = Tom, he = Summer, and i'm hoping for my Autumn?

ANYWAYS, finally saw it, absolutely loved it, made me re-love Regina Spektor, and now my mission during my break from biochem tonight will be to download the soundtrack!!

and heres a cutes:

pourquoi

why is it that life can be going just fabulously well, then things happen that make you feel shittier than shitty? its so unfair.

hmmmm..

sooooo, i haven't really blogged for a while now..i don't feel i have tonzo to say! i'm pretty stoked on life that this effing hell called second year is almost over (which means the majority of the lame arse pre reqs courses are almost done!!), but that means that finals are coming up. i can genuinely say i'm pretty shit scurred for them, especially biol. that class has raped me in every which way possible (more than ochem..IT IS POSSIBLE!!), so i PRAY that i come out of that class with decent marks. i'm looking forward to this summer, no more campus life, but will be seeing tons of UBC because of summer courses (BARF), but at least ill have something to do with my spare time, unlike the boringness of working alllll summer like last year. i still don't know what i'm doing with my life, but i refuse to give up in the search for it. i'm hoping all works out well next year..and i shall stop there because i will probably end up having that vicious thought cycle of "what am i doing with my life, am i making the right decisions, what if i don't get into the specialization i want, blahblahblahblahblah..ANYWHOS, life right now is going well, or sorta well. focusing on school, putting my time towards that, makiing sure i spend more time avec the family and the bests (seeing them TWICE in a week time span has made my little heart very happy..but i still haven't seen my other half of frushi for too long now..), and just trying to stay optimistic. boys have become a thing of the past, the fad is over (well, sorta..), but i must admit the man hating attempt became a fail at MANY points (sorry Sush). i'm just going through life as it comes, taking advantage of every super opportunity i get, and hope that everything that's happening right now is occurring for good reasons..that's all i really can do rights? oh life, why must you be such a confusing, ambiguous bitch sometimes?