stupid boys

note to all the guys out there: if you invite a girl to a "party" and you reallyy want to repel her from you, make you sure are both drunk and high when she arrives. not only will she realize that you can act like a huge fool, but the whole "smoking weed in your unit" deal is just a turn off in itself. spending loadsss of money of drugs and alcohol when youre in uni is just weird..dont guys get over that stage after high school? OH, and next time invite slightly classier ladies to a get together when you have your entourage of brown buddies with you. it makes the situation seem a little less shady. i'm soooo glad i live less then 10 steps away from his place. oh gosh, i would have been in such an awkward situation last night!

p.s. second hand smoke does make you feel loopy. i had the side effects from that this morning. grosssss.

explanation: went to a uni guy friends party last night just to see what was going on, thinking there would just be a bunch of drunk people around to get a laugh at. nopes, it was five brown guys (which i'm pretty good at dealing with..having the majority of my best friends as guys allows me to quickly go into "one of the guys" mode, rather than "skanky, i want some loving" girl mode) and two white chicks (and those were the ONLY females there..yes, white chicks with five brown guys. it was just weird. total racist remark, but come on, you know those chicks are probably there for dizzgusting reasons.) anywho, i thought i would hang out for a bit, just to get a laugh at how drunk they were, until they started smoking their illegal crap, which made me feel sick because i have never smoked, and never will, and just the smell of that crap makes me nauseous. so i left. by the sounds of this "party" two nights ago, i was sorta stoked to go, but seeing my friend totally done beyond belief made me have a totally different perspective on him..and a not so super one to say the least. meh, i still got some lawls from last night. its funny how focused people get on little things when they're in that state, and some of the things that come out of their mouths. always gives us sober people a good laugh before going to bedddd!!

[EDIT]: got a call from the guy buddy this morning. dumbass got caught for smoking, because people could see smoke being blown out of his unit window! LAWLERS to the max. oh man, why are some people sooooo bloody dumb!! he's got a bad rep with the RA's now!!

my milk toof

another uber cute one!! i laughed at this photo, but thought the rest of the post was just uber cutess!! heres the link to the rest!

fml

so i think i should stop talking to people regarding final exams and the class averages for classes. it just seems to bring me down even more. apparently my ochem class average in previous years was 55%, due to the prof, and there was no scaling after..again this is hearsay which i PRAY is not true. i also should stop talking to people about finals who's goal is to just pass the course, because i think i'm slowly lowering my standards like them..or should they bring up my morale by making me realize that i have higher expectations for myself than they do? i don't know. i hate school beyond belief. why am i here?!

boy hater or boy hunter?

its a toughy.

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i find it weird that i check last week to see how many profile views i had and it was at 710, and today i check and its at 740. what the frig?

three simple words

today was a gross day for public transit, but i think i was meant to get late for volunteering today, and step on board of a specific 99 B line. i noticed a lady walk on at Alison Road, and that she wasn't looking too super. as i was enjoying my yummy, and free, McDo coffee, i hear someone whimpering on the other side of the bus, and it was the same lady who walked on who wasn't look like she was having a fab day. being a chick who looks like a 15 year old, i thought it would be weird if i walked up to a lady who looked like she was in her 30's to ask if she was alright. 10 minutes later, i realize she's still crying and that, although everyone around her could see she was in distress, refused to even bother interrupting their super important ipod listening or newspaper reading. kind of hesitant, because i had no clue what her reaction would be, i walk up to her when the bus stopped at Granville to ask "Are you alright." she grabbed my hand and started crying more. then, because i'm pathetic, i start tearing a bit, because that's what i do in situations like this! LOL! after a minute or so, i gave her a hug (yes i hug complete strangers.. im a risk taker like that =P) and just rubbed her knee, hoping it would help, and luckily it did. close to where i was about to get off, i got the most sincere and genuine thank you i have ever gotten from a person. unlike most people, i thought of how i would feel if i was in her situation. if someone cries on public transit, one of the most public places to cry, you know something is really wrong. although i still have no clue what caused her to be so sad, i guess having a positive energy by her side, although it being from me (a complete stranger) is what made all the difference. sooo, next time you see someone who doesn't look like they're feeling too hot, put yourself in their shoes, and take the time just to ask "Are you alright?" it will probably mean more than you can ever imagine to them, and you'll get the warm tinglies inside after as well!! =D

OMG.. THEY'RE BACK!!

i'm super stoked! more new vids by Rin on the Rox!! WOOHOOOOOO!

New History

Sometimes the past is something you just can't let go of. And sometimes the past is something we'll do anything to forget. And sometimes we learn something new about the past that changes everything we know about the present.

call it off

i still love this song. kinda emo, but still absolutely love it. the type of song just to listen to, to focus with, or just to spend the time to think about stuffss.

EDIT

the last post sounded wayy too emo and bitter. it wasnt supposed to come out that horribly!

karma

lying is stealing the truth from someone. i can't stand liars. if i catch someone lying to me once, i can forgive them. but doing it multiple times to my face? i refuse to take it.

another first

so as of now, i'm legallll. so i celebrated last night with the besties, the UBC buddies and a couple cousins. i must admit, it was some good times. although Steamworks takes wayyyy too long so serve their guests, Gastown can be a bit shady at night, and a certain boy kinda bummed my mood for part of the outing, it was still a fab night. Modern is surprisingly small, but luckily not full of a bunch of old creepers! We also all realized that we were probably the youngest ones there! although the night was ended due to a fight (poor unconscious guy who not only got knocked out, but also had his head stepped on) it still had its ups. i gotta thank all the bests for coming out all the way to Van, and the cousins for driving so late at night for me. damn, i so miss everyone. i realized that last night after they left; i had that same feeling i get of sadness when my parents drop me off every weekend. but i'm so glad that they proved they sincerely care about me, by still keeping in touch as though i see them everyday. i still don't know how i would be sane without the guys and the lady bestie. hope everyone had a good time like me! =D

3:25pm

so apparently i'm legal now!!

last day..

of being "illegal." i wish i could enjoy it more rather than hcore studying for math and chem (which i won't get the time to really do after tonight!!) this LG will become a slightly older LG, who can do moreeee things because i will have a piece of ID confirming that i'm older than 14!! WOOTWOOOOOOOT!! time to have some funnnnnn!! ;)

frustration

well, for the past couple weeks, the whole crying dealio was obsolete. i don't know why, maybe its because i was getting used to being away from my normal settings, and because the first wave of midterms were over. but today the crying has come back. i'm super frustrated by school lately, because it seems as though i put so many hours into studying for exams, yet i still get a shitty mark. i almost reached the point last week where i wanted to say "fuck uni, i'm done." its really annoying when i study hard and do badly. i need to find out what i'm doing wrong with my study habits. maybe i'm not focused enough and have other things filling my mind. i have a feeling that's one of the reasons for my crap marks. i need to find a way to stay focused, to forget about all the negativity going on, and just to think positive. i need something just to bring some permanent positivity in my life, to maintain a optimistic mindset. this crying b.s. needs to stop again, that's for sure, because it just messes me up even more. eff. why can't life be as easy as it was two years ago?

giving peace a chance

I survived a war did you know that? I survived a war where they put bodies in to mass graves where there was once a playground. I survived the death of my family, my parents, my brothers and sisters. Then I survived the death of my wife and child when they starved to death in a refugee camp. I survived the loss of my country, of hearing my mother tongue spoken, of knowing what it feels like to have a place to call home. I survived. And I will survive the loss of my legs. If I have to, I’ll survive it. Ok? But Derek, there is always a way when things look like there’s no way. There’s a way to do the impossible, to survive the in survivable. There’s always a way. And you, you and I have this in common. We’re inspired. In the face of the impossible, we’re inspired. So if I can offer one piece of advice to the world’s foremost neuro surgeon. Today if you become frightened instead become inspired.

--Isaac (Grey's Anatomy)

boys and skanks

ok, so seriously, whats with guys loving the skanks? i don't really get it. most of the time, these dizzgustingly skanky girls have little to no common sense or intelligence, drink away their time, and party like there's no tomorrow. many don't go to school, and have terrible jobs, which most of them will probably continue having as their lives go on. and whats even more odd is that the "nice guys" tend to be the idiotic ones who fall for them. like, whats so great about these girls? the thrills you get from looking at them..because most guys aren't going to get in bed with them, because they select the equally skanky guys to hook up with. it always makes me wonder. being a nice girl, i fall for nice guys. but it seems like the nice guys need a slap on the face, some sort of "wake up and look around" dealio, getting their minds out of the gutter, and realize that these skanky chicks have nothing going for them. i reallyyy don't get it!! again, its the whole "boys are stupid" situation. they reallyyyy are!!

Halloween

soooo, being illegal sucks ass on Halloween, especially when you miss it by 11 days. fml, i think so. so i tried finding out what was happening at the last minute (as i always seem to do) and got invited to 3 things. the guys went to one party (which was supposed to be epic, but actually wasn't. woot to Scott for texting me before, informing me that it was shitty), Geoff asked me to go to Jordan's for Halloween (that would've been hilarious to witness!!), and a guy from h.s. asked me to come to his place just to chill. surprisingly enough, i went to the latter's place. i thought it would be my best bet of going ANYWHERE, because it was the most controlled, and my parents would allow me to go because they know him, and know that it would probably be one of the safer bets. (Geoff's plans would've been fun, but because they went to a pub after, that would've been a fail because i wouldnt be allowed in!!). it was actually pretty G rated, which was a shocker because this guy is quite the man whore. it was nice having conversations with brown guys you avoided in high school, but who have changed dramatically in a little more than a year. it was also good reminiscing with an old elementary school buddy, who's house i used to go to all the time when i was in kindergarten because his mum baby sat me!! another LAWL is watching drunk guys play pool..their perception is sooooo off!! oh, and whats with guys and their horniess when intoxicated?! i reminded some of the guys this morning who were there who all they hit on, and i think they were pretty shocked that they had no standards with a little booze in their system. all in all, it was quite a different Halloween, and at a place i never expected of even considering to go to. but as long i came home in one piece, wasn't violated in any way, and had some lawls to remember, i think it was a somewhat success.