Time for summer!

..and to figure out what exactly I'm doing this summer. I'll probably end up taking the physiology equivalent that's taught in the summer, just to get it out of the way. maybe get a P/T job, or end up applying for jobs I've gotten in the past that are full time but super short. dunno about working (main thing that's up in the air). LFS Frosh will be another big thing. goal: MUST get into better shape, instead of being the fatty I am who is taking my high metabolism for granted (Doug will be working me majorly this summer, by forcing my lazy ass out of the house and outdoors for a ton of exercise on my free time -_-"..ugh. gross. but love him for caring!)

today though, I'm resting the brain, not thinking about the chaos known as yesterday (so many emotions, UBC really kicked me in the ass, but it was quite a life changing experience), do a LOT of laundry, since I moved out of residence this afternoon, and go out to give the mind a break.

although my summer is very ambiguous right now, I'm pretty stoked for it!

Last Night of 3rd Year Uni Freak-outs

this truly is the story of my life..but more so worse tonight than ever. a LOT is happening tomorrow for me, so I'm in extreme freak out mode. very tired (I've had major insomnia lately, which has NOT been fun), very nervous to the point that I could throw up, not being able to retain the info as efficiently as I normally can (yet I've been studying this for like the past 7 days) and just all around uncool-ness. as you can see, I'm surviving on Starbucks and their shitty tasting coffee, my nomalicious LARGE mug of tea, washing it down with some water so I don't go all gross and fidgety from the caffeine, with an added bit of iron (which will hopefully help my fatigue/ me feeling REALLY cold..yay poor circulation). note the 6 year old pencil case from grade 9! (I've lost that sucker so many times, but somehow manage to find it..it's destined never to leave my life). too many tears have been shed all day, and I'm craving for it to be over and done with tomorrow at 3:30pm. this picture somes up my uni career.

p.s. dear God, PLEASE listen to my prayers. I need you by my side all day tomorrow. (L)

we always seem to take advantage of what we have, and want what we don't. even as a 20 year old, I seem to continuously do this. why? I wish I could figure that out..

HAPPY BURDAY DOUG AND SCOTT!!

Today, I feel like the baby of the group even MORE. the best girl is 21, Doug and Scott are now 22, and I'm still an LG who will be 21 in NOVEMBER. such a baby.

HAPPY BURDAY DOUG AND SCOTT! < 3 let's get you guys wasted..well let's get Scottie done since Doug isn't much of a drinker anymore.

(in need of some hangout time with the crew, since school can suck it for one night.)

Strangers, again

ET

BIOC302 in t-minus 3.5 hours

I wanna get this shit DONE..but also wish there was such a thing as more time..or less material..or the murder of this course to students never ever everrrrr have to take it.

kk, back to this.

Fight or Flight

I tend to be a flighter instead of a fighter. I find that mechanism easier, less messy, less emotionally straining, just a simple fix to my problems. it's probably not the best solution, or most efficient one, but it gets me through, y'know?

Best pick me up?

especially when stressed and tired by finals/life: a new episode of 1girl5gays. thank you MTV.

Finals Stress = weird taste in music?

I blame my hormonal, stress induced self for having this extreme top 40 tune on repeat..or maybe it's because I've watched UBC LipDub like 50 times and seeing Josh Ramsay in it has gotten me in a weird Marianas Trench hypnosis. in any case, this song is getting old apparently (I don't know for sure since I don't really listen to the radio) but the lyrics make me melt..something I need when I'm all weird and emotional from stress *insert random bursts of emotional breakdowns and crying for really no good reason*..I swear finals messes me up and sometimes I don't even know it until I feel tears dripping down my face. AHAHHAHAHAH!

28TH..I NEED YOU.

UBC LipDub

Make sure you watch, since sponsors are donating various amount for EVERY view to Make a Wish Foundation! < 3

Finals Time..and the end of 3rd year?!

I had one of those "where did the time go?!" moments today when my class ended at 9:30am this morning and I realized I was done my 3rd year of university classes. it freaked me out..a lot. I can't believe THREE years of uni are done. I didn't spend LDOC like many people partying and getting wasted at 10am, but instead did some AgUS transition stuff, and locked myself in my unit studying. obviously the cool way to spend the last day of class, instead of getting crunk at the AMS Block Party. GAWD. I'm such a loser.

well, back to studying.. you know something is wrong when you'd rather study biochem instead of micronutrients.. I've been looking at FNH 351 farr too much in the past few days. *yawn* oh, and this LG is totally going to bed at 10:30pm LATEST. y'know what it isssss.

I am..

far too indecisive and pessimistic for life sometimes. hating ambiguity and fearing the unknown are also some of my not-so-awesome traits. blargh.

Starlighttttt

went to a casino (Starlight) for the FIRST time last night (yes, I wasn’t one of those people who took advantage of being a 19 year old..). had a bit too much fun with Doug on 5 cent slots, had enough self control in me to make sure we stopped when we were doing well, we put in a total of $15 and walked away with $50. WIN! YAY to winning some money, and spending some time with the guys. sad part: I won’t be seeing them til after the 20th or 28th..BLARGH. I shall be deprived of the friends for a while..thanks UBC and final exams..thanks a bunch.