Fiascooo

I think that all the silence is worse than all the violence
Fear is such a weak emotion thats why I despise it.
We scared of almost everything, afraid to even tell the truth
So scared of what you think of me, I’m scared of even telling you.
Sometimes I’m like the only person I feel safe to tell it to
I’m locked inside a cell in me, I know that there’s a jail in you.
Consider this your bailing out, so take a breath, inhale a few
My screams is finally getting free, my thoughts is finally yelling through.

still on repeat..and have yet to hate it. oh Lupeeeeee.

I fail at saying 'no..'

but then again, making a bit of quick cash for tutoring a second year level FNH course, after my former prof thought I was fit to tutor a student in her class = WIN!

*thinks of how in the world she'll fit this into her already stupidly packed schedule..but the brown in her is liking the "money" part of this deal..!!*

Love Language

Josh find < 3

LAWLS

now back to FNH 398..FNH + stats + research methods ALL in one course *barf*

Early Morning Rant

soooo, in 2.5 hours, my little butt is going to get brutally shredded by my biochem midterm. I'm running on 3 hours of crappy sleep, a hell of a lot of tissues from the bawlfests I've had, and I'm feeling nauseous. as some know, I have weird coping mechanisms, including drinking too much water and subconsciously gnawing on the skin at the side of my fingers (the most gross habit I have when stressed out..which sometimes leads to constantly picking at my finger, blood..stupidity in general.)

right now, my fingers hurt (they are super ugly as well), my bladder hates me, and my brain wishes I didn't take BIOC302 this term, and instead in the summer. oh well, story of a Science kid's life, no? *crosses fingers I don't fail this beast*

rant that made no sense and was pointless: done.

First academic all- nighter?

I predict it happening tonight. YAY BIOC302..

BIOC 302 = Death

instead of spending the past two days outside enjoying the rare sunny days Vancouver has at this time of year, I've spent it studying for my 300 level biochemistry course. (I'll be hated today for missing an important meeting and most probably a birthday as well because of this hell..) and no, I didn't do the whole last minute, procrastination cram fest, I've actually been studying for this mofo for the majority of my week long Reading Break..sad times. (bye bye thoughts of having a social life tonight, and even a bit of dancing for Ankit's birthday).

here's evidence of my sufferings..ugly hair, no make up, oversized shirt, and my ugly house pants is what I've been rocking for two straight days.




that being said, I should leave the unit for even 10 minutes today and load up on the vitamin D and ocean air, since I havent actually had any fresh air for the past 36 hours..the joys of locking yourself away from the rest of the world.

back to studying for me. ={

A story of mixed emoticons

2nd Annual Frushi Anti-V Day

was a food fest. Rachael and I were determined to fulfil every food craving we had..and did so last night. what did we do all night? eat.

1) 4:00pm-->pho (which didn't fill us up..yet during previous visits to the same pho place, we've walked out of there eating the same amount we did yesterday but on the verge of regretting eating the whole bowl..soooooo filling.)
2) 20 minutes later, hit up that little taco place on Hasting (see post below) and each had two tacos.
3) another 15 minute walk away was Bonchaz, and we HAD to fulfill our sweet tooth needs of those delicious buns (mmmmm Chocolate Truffle Bonchaz..!)
4) after feeling SUPER guilty, we walked around on Robson (right after hitting up Pacific Center to see the chaos of boys searching for last minute gifts for their lady friend) and hit up Starbucks for coffee, to wait for the ridiculous down poor of rain to subside.
5) finally at 8:00pm, indulged in a slice of cheesecake EACH.

so, as you can see, in a 4 hour time period, our little bodies consumed THAT much food (we're two females, both ranging at 5' 1" - 5' 2" in height..)..and then hit the food coma, where the talkative frushi couldn't even speak to each other the whole skytrain ride home, since we were too full to move OR speak.

now THAT's how Valentine's Day should be spent.

and of course, we had to add those boys into the mix. nights out tend to be completed with a bit of testosterone that we both love very non sexually.


NOTE: to any boys who happen to somehow fall for either of us: never buy us flowers. we love things that either last forever (clothes or shoes) or things that make our stomach's happy (Godiva's Chocolate anyone?). it was one of those moments Rach and I experienced yesterday that we felt the world of testosterone should be aware of!

Happy Singles Awareness Day!

yes, Valentine's Day..the day most people wish never existed, where people lock themselves indoors, eat away their sorrows in chocolate, and watch a solid amount of cry-fest films.

not for frushi though (a super lame name my bestie and I came up with for our friendship--> I am fro (due to the hair) and she is sushi (since she's half Japanese) and together we make frushi!). instead of mourning our single-ness (which we never do..who needs boys when we have each other and high calorie meals?), we are celebrating the second annual Frushi Valentine's Day, by hitting up downtown, spending wayyyy too much money on food, going out for desserts, then finding some way to work off those excess calories for the rest of the night (NO twss implied). this year we are going smelly: Pho with its noodle-y smelly goodness, some spicy, oniony tacos at La Taqueria, then ending this nomfest at Cheesecake Etc. it sounds like a typical frushi date..but we'll be doing more faux-barfing at all the disgusting couples who will be roaming the streets of downtown Vancouver tonight.

the con to today (other than the undertone of love everywhere): it's raining. thanks Vancouver.

but all in all, I'm really quite stoked! good food and a fabulous best friend! (L)

AWWW YEEAAHHH, READING BREAK YEEAHHH

..but I'm spending the first day of RB studying BIOC302..and babysitting my brother since my mama and papa are going out. you know you're cool when..

Midterm Season

it's that time of year again..not looking forward to the one I'm having tomorrow. so many little things to memorize, that I know I should cram into my brain since this prof is known to test super anal, specific stuff (oh FNH350..). PRO to tomorrow: READING WEEK BEGINS! CON to tomorrow: the fact that most of RB will be spent studying (damn you BIOC302 and FNH398), or doing volunteer stuff that's not as fun as some of the things I'm involved with, PLUS I have to finish up some applications. yay..

butttttttttttttt it does mean Valentine's Day is almost here, which also means a late day/night with the best girl, involving too many calories, hatin' on cutesy couples, and appreciating being single! (I have a feeling some of the guys will be jealous of our night and end up joining us, but we'll see how that goes!)

in any case, WISH ME LUCK for my midterm tomorrow. I'm hoping to get at least 6 hours of sleep tonight..if not I'll pass out throughout my 1.5 hour commute back homeeeee. oh school, why are you so not kind to me??

Every so often..

I need to breathe and think about nothing. None of my responsibilities, none of my academic priorities, just nothing. I need more of that in my life right now.

But all I see is you and me

why is it that I JUST discovered this oldie? my type of tune to listen to in the background quietly while studying..plus Ryan Tedder's voice makes me want to melt no matter what the song is. top 40 guilty pleasure = One Republic.

Nick and Norah II

"the way you're moving in your sleep, the way you look before you leap, the strange illusions that you keep, you don't know but I'm noticing."

...

"some wars result in complete and total victory. some wars end with a peace offering. and some wars end in hope...but all these wars are nothing compared to the most frightening war of all. the one you have yet to fight."

Lupe Fiascoooo

NOTE: listen to the lyrics. totally worth it.