agreed

1 girl 5 gays: Heartbreak

so, this is another piece of work on my list of MANY MTV shows that I love. I didn't pay much attention to it, until I was randomly flicking channels in July and was intrigued by the title. (note: if you don't have an awesome relationship with your family/siblings, this show may have awkward moments, where you frantically search for the remote control to change the channel, due to some hcore sexually explicit randoms!!) the show is basically about the "girl" in the show asking the 5 "gays" 20 questions, and they answer them. I watched the latest episode online, and loved the answer to one of the questions asked: "is it important for everyone to experience a broken heart?" obviously, I agreed to this, along with all the gays, and the straight female host. one response that came up was, "your first heartbreak makes you an adult" and another was "it raises the bar for what you can expect for yourself in terms of emotional discipline." it's so true through. heartbreak is a different level of emotional pain, nothing that can be compared to anything else if you have never experienced heartbreak before. and once you're able to cope and overcome the shittiness of the issue, you really do feel more grown up, more capable of dealing with harder situations, less like a kid, more like an adult. I feel what we considered to be a 'heartbreak' in high school doesn't count though, mainly because what we perceived as 'love' really was something that was controlled by peer pressure or just majorly eff'd up hormones. but heartbreak after high school, when it's a situation where you put so much of effort and time into the person, dealt with all their crap (and they did with yours), with an end that left a huge emotional bruise, counts (if that makes any sense.) I know a lot of people who would disagree with me when it comes to how I feel about high school 'love,' but I think the mindset all of us were in during those 5 years was so multi factorial that the 'love' part of it wasn't as true as people believe it was, y'know? but yeah, heartbreak = shitty. but whatevs. its allows you to become a stronger person, and that's all that matters in the end, right?

M.I.A.

yes, I have been, which means I've been UBER busy. ECON 101 hell is OVAAAAA, and no one will understand how stoked on life I was when I got my mark back (most would be relieved right after their exam, but that mofo of a final was HARD, and I was quite emo for the week long wait I was forced to endure before the marks were posted on SSC!!). with some last minute out of town-ing literally the morning after my night exam, all my time being spent volunteering and now at a new, short term job with UBC (YAY MONEY!!), I'm unbeliebeably occupied. that's probably the reason why my summer feels as though it went by faster than my typical summers..I wish it wasn't mid August already. ='{ my goal: to get as MUCH time with the besties as possible, while still balancing the random responsibilities I have and spending time with the fam bam. I need a night out on the town, with the boys and Sush, just enjoying each other's company as though schedules, responsibilities, and school heartaches are non existent..I'm in desperate need for that asap. I also want a few more spontaneous drives with the crew to Crescent/ White Rock. always a good way to get away from the typical Surrey scene.

that's all for now!